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assalamualaikum followers ! :)

today was the day i want to tell u what i feel now..

as what ? as a single girl that had been left by his ex-boyfriend..

seriously, i've never been this way before..

bkn la xpnah kne dump..

tp, kli ni lgi trok la..

why ? hm.. what do u feel when someone told u that he want to marry u ?

bring u to meet his mother ?

get to know his big family ?

introduce u to his friends as his wife ?

treat u like a princess ?

hm.. yes.. only mirul did that to me..

i miss him..

yes.. i admit that.. but,

i can accept that he is not mine anymore..

to the girl that has been stolen his heart, congrats..

its hard for me to say goodbye to u mirul..

but i take it as a challenge in my life..

thank you so much mirul..

if u didn't this to me, i wont realize i stupid i am coz letting u hurt my heart...

let u to cheat on me..

trust u although we are miles apart..

thank so muchhh... :)

hope that u will live happily with ur new one...

my birthday, my day !!

huargh.... ble da bgn tdo ?

ape ag, trus g mnd la..
da r tdo kt kul 4am then bgn kul 7.40am..
xpe lya !! sacrify !!
war has begin !! (final laa... )

ok, ble da smpai klas..
yes, when we are doing MAF220 tgh mlm smlm kn..
act, ktorg de presentation utk 'kemahiran insaniah' ...
bnde ni utk tw self-confident yg ade dlm diri kita..
xpe la.. lya ok je.. although skit hti sbb group mmber lya ni bdak part 4..
tp xwt kje pn.. just typing, then photostat ats transparent paper..
thats all ! ~ what ever la kan ?
hmm.. then ble da smpai turn tu, gagap la jgak.. ;p
xpe la.. confident lya !
and yes !! i did it !

then ble da hbs semua class utk hri yg terakhir tutorial..
i pn balik bilik i then kemas brg utk bwak balik rumah terchinta <3
yg gila nya, lya pn gtw la kt 'I' ni yg lya balik rumah..
padahal da jnji ngn faiz xnk gtw 'I' ckp lya balik rumah..
huhuhuh... sorry faiz.. i just want to meet 'I' ..

ble da naek train kt masjid jamek, lya mmg rse excited gila !
lme kot x blik rumah !! da r balik plak time birthday..
hee... mmg tambah excited la kan ?
xpe la.. then da dkat sgt99 ngn rumah (lrt wgse mju) ..

cll la si 'I' ni.. konon nk mntak tlg hntar kt rmah la..
hee... gatai naa hang lya ! :p
padahal dlm hti da detup detap dah ! hahaha ~
mne x nye, tbe2 je plak nk mnx tlg hntar ke rumah...
siap ckp dlm hti, " ARE NUT LYA ? "
AHAHAHA ! ~ kecut perut la..
eh jap, cll 'I' skli je ok ? tp 'I' xangkt pn...
xpe la.. then text 'I' jz gtw yg ingt nk soh amek lya kt wgse mju..
thank GOD la sbb 'I' kata kalo die amek pn naek motor..
dpt la bg alasan yg munasabah sbb lya bwak beg besar plak !
lgi pn da call kakak soh amek kt wgse mju.. huhu..
konon nye time tu rse cm melepas la nk jmpe kau 'I' !!
HAHAHAHA !! ~ sedeyh !

then 'I' ckp, "u suh jela akak u amek brg. then i anta la u blek."
hahha. mmg sme2 nk jmpe la kn ? ke syok snirik ? :p

otw balik rumah, mama ckp nk mkn durian..
yes ! durian ! mmg masak la aku kalo mama nk mkn durian..
why ?? erk, bkn nk blagak la..
I DON'T EAT DURIAN !
seriously, mmg xmkn durian.. kalo mkn pn xhbs..
erk.. ok stop ! ni pn tbe2 bau durian.. haih... sabar2..

back to 'I'.. hm, lya pn text 'I' ,
"kalo nk jmpe jom p mkn durian ngn my mum skli nk? kt mwt je.."
"wah. smpai ngn mak. segan kot."
"my mum ok la. sporting kot.."
"yela. kang dia pkir pe plak. Egt kte kapel kang. bhye2."
"xd mkne nye la. my mum knal sgt la i. haih.."

p/s: yg biru tu lya tw. yg pink tu 'I'

so, ble 'I' da ckp segan la, hujan la, ape bnde ntah lgi..
lya pn ok la.. xnk xpe la gila.. hahaah.. (mmg hujan pn time tu)
tgk tgk mama ngn akak mkn durian, dpt la msg dr 'I' ..
"pe nme restoran tu."

trus la lya cll die ckp mne de nme restoran. gerai durian je pn.. haih..
mmg penat la layan die kan ? xpe la.. gila nye psl.. hahaa !!
ingt kn knp die tye nme kdai.. rpe nye die da otw :) <3

what do u expect me to say right now ?
yes ! he is coming !
yes ! 'I' dtg naek motor !
yes ! 'I' dtg dlm hujan !
yes ! 'I' dtg dgn perasaan yang penuh segan !
yes ! he ate durian ! (seulas je)
yes ! sit beside me !
yes ! i am excited !

birthday girl ~

happy birthday to me !! :D
hahaaha ! who is the 1st person ?
hm.. who else ? mirul la..
hm.. ok.. dah.. tu je..
let him be the 1st.. but hey !
wat pe ko pk sgt kalo die pn blom tentu ikhlas nk wish ?
huhh... buat skit otak je ok ?
next !!

ok, starting right on 12am in the morning..
me, munie & iykin tgh stdy MAF220 (costing)
xpe la.. stdy punye stdy, tgk2 jap da kul 12.07am..
dpt la bday wish dr beliau kan ?
xpe la.. thnx awk ! sbb ingt lgi bday sye..
appreciate GILA ! :D

then ktorg pn trus kn lah stdy...
dr level ats, smpai ke level bwah ktorg stdy..
but the fact is, i x stdy pn..
why ?? xsdap hti la.. cm de something happen je..
hm.. then ble kt bilik mmber gatal tgn g on9..
hahaah !! mmg terbaik la kan ?
tp xpe la.. ble da xsdap hti tu kan..
call faiz.. tp die BZ.. cll 8juta kali pn x answer..

xpe la.. then cll 'I'
who 'I' ? ngaaa.... :D
ade la.. nnt2 la i cte ek ?
hee... sbb bru je knal die..
thnx AyuoQ ! ~ ('',)

ok, ble da cll die.. mmg terbaik la kn..
asek kne buli je.. but hey ! tp i kne kn die balik la..
hahaha ! ~ :D knpe ? hee...
'I' ckp kim slm kt sume mmber i..
then aku ckp kt die nk kim slm canie bley x ?
" korg, mmber mel yg gila kim slm kt korg."
astu die gelak je.. hahaha ! ~ sory la u..
u yg bg permission tuk ckp cmtu kn ? ;)
then mmber pn de la yg tye, "spe mel ?"
dgn pnuh rse nk kne kn si 'I' ni..
i pn ckp, "die org subang. blaja kt consist collage."
haahahah !! ~ mmg setepek la aku kne bongok ngn die !
hadey ~ kejam ouh 'I' !! :D
pas habis ckp ngn 'I', i trus naek bilik dan TIDUR dgn nyenyak nya..

p/s : continue japg :)

morning !

countdown time readers !!
why ?? huhhh...
frust nyee... :(
hmm... okk...
korg kne countdown sbb mggu dpn bday aku la...
ahahahaha... :D
date ? haihh... kn da ckp mggu dpn..
so, mggu dpn la.. hri khamis...
ok ? :p
hm... tp kne strong cket la..
np ? celebrate sorg2..
k la... gtg ! :D

smoge awk bhgie..

salam to my readers...
hmm.. msti korg da lme gle x tgk aku update kan ??
huhuhu... sorry la..
bz cket la skrg.. ngn personal prblm ag..
stduy ag.. huhh... penat jgak kan kalo kte syg kt org tp org lyan kte cm ptong?
sedey je ble tgk dye wt status kt fb, ckp ..
'seseorang ada satu barang yang berharga, kalau dah xpandai jaga jgn menyesal..'
dye wt aku btol2 cm sampah..
tp xpe la.. 1 day dye akn trime balasan atas pe yg dye da pnah wt kt aku..
mgkin ag trok ? who knows rite ??
bkn la aku doa kn dye yg brok2, but at least...
dye dpt pengajaran spye jgn sskli wt org cm x hrgai...
myb, dr cni mst korg pk yg bkn2 kn ?? haha..
everyone has their rite to think wat they want to think..
aku hrap dye akn bhgie dgn gf bru dye @ future fiance to be within this year..
for time being aku akn blaja and move on in my life..
aku de mama yg harap kn aku bley ubah family..
aku de abg yg nk adik dye brjye sbb dye nk tgk aku bgn..
aku de impian yg aku prlu laksana kan..
sume yg aku buat skrg demi mse dpan aku..
sry boys, bkn xnk cintan2.. tp wt kwn bley..
yes, i still love him but i wont go back to him..
the things that he had done to me make me realise that,
every women has to protect their own priority..