idk...

actually, xtw nk mule dr mne..
hmm... bnde ni jd smlm..
dye ckp kt kwn dye yg i xfhm dye..
serezly i plik gyler np dye ckp cmtu..
sdg kn i yg lbih fhm dye kalo nk d bndig kn ape yg dye fhm i..
dye ckp i x fhm mnat dye utk maen bola..
ok, imagine la kan.. kalo btol i xfhm mnat dye utk maen bola,
knpe i bg jgak dye maen?
ok, mayb dye mksd kn yg i sllu ckp dye xde mse utk i..
cbe la pk blik.. ble bln pose lpas, dye training ptg or mlm..
ok, xkesah la kn? if dye training ptg, dye akn jge kdai wktu mlm..
tp xkn dye xle nk msg lgsg kn? ble i cll plak, sllu cm xnk ckp je pn..
spe x sdih kan? nme je ade bf, tp mcm xde..
kwn i sndri prasan yg i da jrg ngn fon.. xkesah la.. myb dye bz...
then ble dye blik kje, sllu nye dye akn cll..at least skjap pn jd la..
tp mslh nye, lgsg xde cll.. msg plak juz anta, 'syg, b da blik.luv u'
x boley ke kalo dye tye i tgh wat pe?
ape yg ssah sgt? i ke yg fhm dye??
then, ble soh dye kjut kn pgi2, dye jnji je lbey..
tp lgsg xcll.. slmt la i da wat alarm utk bgn tdo..
but still, i xckp pape pn.. i juz mjok je ngn dye..
n dye wat cm dye x bslh, n acting like it doesn't happen...
skit hti x? msti la skit kn?
kalo dlu bley plak dye ckp yg dye bslh.. xpe la.. although skt hti dgr, tp dye ngaku..
but now, lgsg xde.. am i sill the one yg xfhm dye????
ble tye dye ade prblm ke x, dye ckp xde..
but i dpt tw yg actually dye mmg ade mslh...
spe i dlm hdup dye? kalo btol i pntg, np dye wt cm i wjud??
then dye i anta msg tye psl ni, dye xde plak jwb..
da r smlm dye ckp xde kdt nk cll.. ok.. xpe la.. xnk ckp pape..
myb sbb dye xde duet nk topup.. then i tdo la..
then ble i trjge smlm, i ade la try cll dye and guess what?
the word 'waiting call' juz blow up on my screen..
does he know wat i feel that tym?
when i call it again and again, it can't be reach anymore..
then ble i da smbg tdo blik, bru la dye trhegeh2 nk cll i blik..
ok mayb his number is not on my screen, but it from maxis...
ade la no dye kn.. xpe la.. although dye try cll but xdpt..
but for what dye nk cll?? sdg kn dye ckp ngn i dye xde kdt???
utk ape dye tpu i? dye pnah jnji ngn i yg dye xkn tpu i ag...
mne jnji dye?? am i still the one yg bslh dlm hal ni??
u judge me.. i juz cant say anything..
1 hing i can say is,
i miss him.. a lot...
and only Allah know how i feel ryte now...
b, i'm sorry what i have done to you..
i juz want u to be beside me when i need u..
thnx for everything..
thats all...